Stressed out!

It all started not long ago, about a week or two.

Night-mares continue till today.

I could feel that thousand pounds of weight on my broad shoulder. As the day goes by, more and more problems start to surface and the weight adds on.

I yearn and pray upon a day of relieve but it’s to no avail.

I fancy a night of good sleep and a week of holiday break.  But all in all the word of “ridiculous” smack me awake and I realize it’s all impossible.

I’ve never intend to give up, as I know there is much more things left undone.  Looking at my own reflections in that long rectangular IKEA mirror, I saw my gloomy facial expression.

All this while, I’m sick and unhappy towards every single little thing around me. Hates to have that melancholic feeling! 

 I’m not trying to be dramatic again, just wish to express my impenetrable thoughts and feeling through words and writings. I have never expected to have someone that could understand me since the very day. Thus, I guess it would be a better way to jot down all these different feelings.

There’s still a long way to go, I have to keep myself conscious till the end.

Side track: I hate to be controlled and I love freedom, if I’m treated like a jail bird, life will be miserable for both parties. I’m not like what or who you think I am. Hate all those rediculous assumptions that you made.

***NOT referring to any particular person but just a general thought.

Milestones

Over the past weeks since school re-open till now, my mind was still empty.
I don't know what am i doing. Just know that im tired ,am busy with idonknow what.

Breaking down soon.

YES, im such a complain queen lol..
hateit.

sos- shouting out loud

How i wish im smarter !!!

Stress ;(

Timbre @ arts house , 10th monthsary. chilling

8jan 2010. 

Happy 10th  monthsary, baby!

Yes, we managed to stay together for 10 months already. And what i can say was, i'm really happy that we are able to celebrate our monthsary tgt  though we quarrel so often and so many things happened, which make me feel that we're not able to celebrate this special day together again.>.<

Nevertheless, on this day, you still bring me out for a little celebration and sweet treats too.

 

 I stayed home for the whole morning , doing Ecad assignment and reading PM text and headed out to meet baby in the evening. Baby picked me up and we went over to PW for some shoppings and had our dinner there as well.

SUSHI + SALMON = love

 

 

 HAHAS. baby can close eyes and do things at the same time??..-.-

  

 Lobster sushi, not that fantastic though.

  

Lucky we didn ordered another set, Coz we were damn full and couldnt finish already.

I love the chawamushiiii

 

 The environment of this place not that bad. From the outside of parkway, Ichiban Boshi looks damn nice.

 

 After dinner baby accompany me to find mic& friend @ timbre.

Thank you baby for accompanying me there, and i'm really sorry to delay your time and kept your friends waiting for you.

  

 On our way there.

We went to timbre@substation and when we reached there then we realised we got the wrong place.=.=

Luckily baby is with me else i donno what to do man...-.-" i'll be damn lost

  

  

 Met mic's friend, Si Ting and Vic. They are from school of BA

  

 baby accompany me a while before heading off to meet his friend

  

 PS, *_* why mic and LK got that kuku face?

  

 CAMWHORE TIME..:)

  

  

  

  

  

  

 "SEX ON THE BEACH"

  

  

  

  

  

 Thanks mic& friend for the song dedication,Love Game for me and baby.=)

After chilling out and had some time chatting  with each other ,we left the place and headed home .

 

  

  

  

  

  

 Though the music wasn't that great @ arts house, but the people and the topics we chat was good enough (:

Thanks mic ^_^

And 

Baby.

TO BABY: you're really so sweet and i love the way you treat me like your precious girl. But i hate it when we start to quarrel again shortly after those sweet moments/ time spent.

=.=" hope that every monthsary will be a sweet and happy ending one.

Lastly, thanks for the gift. I love it! It's pretty^_^

xoxo, LOVE YOU.

Stressed!

I'm so stressed right now, and i believe i'm not the only one that felt this way.
Firstly, i wanted to start on eCAD assignment but the VB.NET is giving me a big problem! I cant open the program and can't get my things started. So the only thing that i did so far was just executing the SQL Queries and nothing else.
I thought of get started early and at least i got a little more time for the other 2 assignments.
Now i'm feeling so trap in such a situation.

Anyway, on a happier note, baby came to fetch me from school today. Thanks alot (:
I'm not angry already, i'll just let bygones be bygones. And believe you've understood the situation and hope things get better for us.

We had dinner at home, ruby cooked for us. And we had a little walk to WM.Window shopping was fun though nothing much to shop at WM.
I went to check out those promotions for handphones. There's so many pretty pretty phones that i wish i own one!!!! Anyway, i'll try my best to save save save!! hohohoho and sooner i'll go get a new phone(:

Alright, i shall start on the other assignments now.
ciaoz~!

School for depressed kids?

First day of new school term, i was early. That was really surprising but i'm trying to be ealry and not late for school anymore.
Anyway, last night I can't sleep well due to certain issue that's in my mind.
Out of boredom, i did a reflection on myself. I REALISED you're right, i'm such a drama queen.
I wish i'm not such a person.

I felt depressed when i attend school today. I try to be friendly and act normal but i felt that strange feeling.

I wish that feeling goes off soon.

RANDOM FACT: I miss the feeling of in-love with something.

2010-BAD STARTING?

Thought that it would be a better year, but the beginning of the year wasn't as good as what i thought.

Everything jeopardize within a night.
I thought it would be better after that night.
But this morning i felt something that's missing.

Perhaps it's because of yesterday's nightmare.
I was a big fat liar that shouldnt be forgiven?
And i dreamt that i got my punishment of not getting back my love from this on.
Sounds stupid and lame.

But in my mind there's this fear.
And it all brings back to countdown day.
I felt sorry but you don't understannd.
Now everything leaves a bad impact.

I can still feel the hurt on my hand,
though it's over.

Words of true feelings and thoughts

Today is the last day of year 2009 and since i'm so free now, i can blog my thoughts and feelings. So at least the time don't pass so slow.

ps/. long post

Just want to do a quick review of what i had acheive and things i learnt through out this one whole year.

Starting from School.
School semster starts and ends very fast. It's like a fast moving train, it always starts with boring lectures, busy assignments and projects followed by killer CT and Exams.
Academically, i know i did not perform well but i did put in effort to improve my results.
Honestly speaking, i had a hard time in school. Simply because i hates poly life. Not knowing the reason why but the strong feeling of unwillingness forced me.
I once had a dream, that i've already graduated and entering the society. But this isnt true at all. It's still long way to go.

In school, i find it hard to be my true self. I wish i'm mute and deaf. I wish i don have to wear any masks. I wish i'm not so sensitive. I wish i could be best friends with my classmates.But it didn happened at all.

This year, i lost a number of good, close friends. Namely,KL,thomas,adrain. I'm saying the truth and they are those friends that i make me learnt and go through darkness with me. They are the one that makes me know the world is not jus black and white. They are those good listeners, but due to their man's ego, our friendship jeopardised..
I'm being honest as this is my blog and all this words are my thoughts.

I believe i did achieve something this year. But i couldn remember all though.
And i guess i've acheivements in my CCA. I LOVE TKD so much but i still choose to leave the place where i used to train so hard with those friends. It's because of myself. I'm so sensitive to certain issues and i fcuking hate people wearing mask. though im one of them. sounds contradicting ya. Through all those competitions i've participated, all those tough trainings i've gone through, i realise it is the team spirit that keeps you moving. And once you don't feel the spirit, you will leave quietly.
The feeling of winning in sparring sessions and being promoted to higher belt level is really great. But i guess i wont feel it anymore.

I've manage to walk out of my comfort zone to make friends with everyone. Although my goldfish memory cant remember every friend's name but i'll rmb your character. Yes, we are once a friend and always a friend as well. Though you might not like m attitude or my character but still i'm treating you as a friend.

During my school projects, cherie,bei and peng make me realise that if every single one of us settles down to complete a task together, it can be done successfully. But if only one person is assigning the task and doing it indiviously, it's never going to be a complete one.
They are those classmates of mine that knows me well. Yes, i admit i got serious AP and i'm always moodswing but you guys make me feel comfortable when we do our projects together. Thank you so much

Next , goes to family issues.
I don't come from a rich family. But i never complain that i got not enough cash to use. Because i know my parents are trying hard to give us the best. This year, my dad initially wanted to buy a new house at jurong west. But due to certain issues, the plan was cancelled.And honestly speaking, i feel that i have a good place to stay, i hate to move house. coz it seriously takes me a long while to get use.

This year, our family faced quite some problems. But i choose to ignore all those problems and pretend that nothing happens. Though at times, its hard to keep ignoring and pretending but i have to do it this way so as not to lead myself back into depression.

And there's new members joining our family,  cousin adrain and cousin TT. They came here to study. Though the feeling is like so Weird but i have to accept it.  One thing is that i nv meet them before and i don remember it until my mami told me. And maybe it's because they are younger and so we have to make them feel comfortable when they stay at our place. But somethings i seriously cant take it. I feel so strangle. will anyone feel me?

Besides that mami wasnt in good health and she have to worry so many things. Though i'll always complain about why my mami everytime so busy and she totally got no time for us unlike other people's mami. But as i grow mature, i understands her hardship. And to be true, i really appreciates how mami show her care and concern for me though not obvious. And how my dad try to change himself when i was in hospital.
This year was a terrible year in the beginning, i wasted a lot of their money. I felt so guilty and i promise i wont let them waste that kind of money on me again.

This year, i finally walk out of those past heartbreaks. And i found a new love, loong wei. I'm really feeling guilty n sorry. To be freak, i didn't show any interest because i don't have any feelings for you. But as we went out tgt and slowly i start to know you a little more. Though i might not know many things about you but i'm trying my best to feel you.(:
Yes, you are right, you are the one that taught me so many things that i didnt know in the past. You are the one that leads me out of my comfort zone, the one that makes me feel love again. And i do agree we're not the like those perfect couples, the way we fight and quarrel, the way we try so hard to hurt each other and the way we say breakup so easily.

Though i said i got no feeling for you at the beginning but now as the time pass i start to have a little feeling. I want to let you know i'm a bad girl that breaks people's heart and ended up i felt more hurt. you don't believe me at first but through those terrible quarrels i guess you should know what i mean. You are unlike my other ex-boyfrien, You wont let me rely on you. I know you don want me to rely so much on you and i'll suffer when you are in army. thanks for the effort my dear.

This relationship lasted for 9 ,months plus, and still we don have trust within each other, so many quarrels and little happiness. but i believe you will bring more happiness and we will not fight so much. I really want to thank you for your level of tolerance. love you !

And besides school,family,boyfriend i also have work. Have being working in Ikea for quite sometime. And though the job is like so boring and tired at times but i still enjoys it esp when you have all your friends working there. I've learnt alot from those seniors there, namely wendy and pearlyn. They are so caring and besides teaching me those working things they also shared with me their social experience and other moral values.
This year, i've make a lot of new friends, and a lot is just those hi-bye friends. but at least i get to meet more people and feel those different characters that people have.

I also have a group of close friends in IKEA, namely,celine,colleen,Ida,hidayah,aisah.clarie..etc

This year, i went oversea twice and both of it is really very memorable. And i really enjoy it. (:

That's most of it. hahahahas.. stupid right. but nvm its for myself. this post is to allow me to reflect back next time.

Christmas celebration @ grace's palce

28december

Steamboat session cum christmas celebration

 Grace was so nice to open up her place and let us have steamboat together.

It has been ages that we last meet up together. 4e3 girls and vel was there.

Thanks to grace's parents for helping us to prepare all those steamboat ingredients

 

 Pearlyn's favorite golden mushrooms.

 

That's my fav!! all time fav

 

 A lot of ingredients that allow us to have 1234 rounds of steamboat.

 

Ada prepare to eat already.

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Look at them so serious while cooking the food.hahahah

p

presents for gift exchange.

 A

i Finally know how to play MJ already. hahahhas.

Though not very good but at least know a little.(:

 a

After manda reached, we had our second round. hungry again after playing MJ 

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That's the present i prepared for the gift exchange. though its just a tissue box but there's pretty things inside. Dont believe  can ask pearl hhahah

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All the gifts.

me n ada

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Grace's pet. Gold fish,rabbit,parrot.

 

Thanks grace for picking me up from the bus stop and sending me and manda home (:

 

Good time spent together. and i'm so happy!! i learnt how to play MJ. hahahahs.

uupdates.

Since i cant get back to sleep i'll just blog to let the time pass faster.
I always blog all at one go .... so many post not in order*_*

On Christmas Night.
I  was working on Christmas day and headed down to GoodWood Park Hotel for the christmas party. let pictures do the talking.

Thanks baby for buying me SooKee Necklace and baby was so sweet that day(:

The cute cute card that i wrote words of love for you

<3 MY BABY.

Elsinta ("

 The sunshine girls, they have rosy cheeks!!

Sandra and steff.

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Elsinta and sandra

time to play gamess.

D

Dillon explaining how the game goes.

sandra got sunshine skin tone!!

Ben wanna act yi ge poker pro

he taught us how to play many games and he keep repeating the rules of the game.. hahhaha

Headed down to walk at orchard with baby

9 months ago, Goodwood park was the place that bring us both together(:

My new shoe.(" but its too big for me-.- and i got difficulties in walking ..lol.x

fatty me... -.- my face is like 2 times bigger than baby=(

Pictures of you and me.

<3

Adorable CHIPS

30th December

It was raining so heavy that our plan to go picnic have to cancel. I'm so sorry that i was late for almost an hour. Celine was always the one that's on time(:

We Had dinner together and went shopping at 313.

While waiting for the rain to stop... 

see i already prepare to go picnic already, look at my flowery top . But the weather seriously spoilt our plans..

After my return from pattaya, i really turn a tone darker. Even the tone of my loose powder don't suit my skin tone now.=(

Had our dinner at this Korean Cuisine Restuarant and look at their drinks. so cutee...!!!

I ordered, KIMCHI soup and that waiter PMC, asked me this: u want beef,chicken or pork. and i thought she asked me to choose one type of meat for the soup. So i chose beef. In the end she charge $2.50 for that few piece of beef. It's like she didnt tell us that its chargable, she pharse it like as if we have to choose one type of meat. I'm fine with paying it but the thing is when we asked her how come got so many other additional charges, than she so attitude! BTH lahh. WORST still the kimchi so spicy TTM, i only ate less than half of it. Seriously wasted, if baby was there with me , how good would it be, he can share with me. Celine and Colleen scolded me for wasting food=O

For colleen's order, all her 3 small side dish also chargeable sia and she didn't want the sides. But that PMC still charge her.

LOLS.

After shopping we slack around and chill while waiting for ALVIN and the CHIPMUNKS.

That's today's special combo. very nice. though im not a fans of strawberry stuff..

SO SO SO SO SO adorable!

 

  

 

After movie, headed to concorde for a drink and oysters...

andrea and celine...

I LOVE THE CHIPMUNKS. so cute!!!

Though our plan was ruin by the rain but we still have fun hanging out tgt.

HOHOHO...

I'm eating alot recently ;( and i'm putting on weights agaiN

Whatever IT IS, healthy can already right? ;P

Rebel

@ Rebel with Dillon,Ben&Steff and baby

Headed down to clarke Quay to meet baby after hanging out with Celine and Colleen.
Lucky we all manage to catch the last train (:

Seriously, i'm so fat and clumsy like a monkey-.- I didn't had enough sleep the previous night and i felt like a floating elephant! I almost fall down and nearly BANG hard into 313's forever21 glass door.

Initially , wanted to meet ada & Co to go club, but ___________________________.
Anyway, Dillon leaving this Saturday so they decided to go club.
Rebel was damn crowded! And i  was wearing a flat, and my leg kana step so many times! Make me feel so terrible, i should have take a photo of my poor little fat toes.

Picturess..

Steff,ben,Dillon and baby(:

 

 

Dillon was asking who pour so much alcohol in his cup.

 

 

 Cheers

 

Baby's dream car??? He will always stop and look at those cars..


After Rebel , baby sent me back. It was quite an enjoyable night besides those steppings on my poor toes.

I slept for less than 4 hours only!!! and one stupid call wakes me up, now i cant go back to bed already. My head spinning right now, am trying to find more times to do and ignore the spin

Plans for today:
Head down to Funan IT mall to collect my laoya laptop
Meet baby for lunch
Countdown party tonight, Not going to siloso party already
Will be with baby for countdown.

and SAD THING ABOUT YESTERDAY: my flowery bag spoilt already..=(
The one that i like it so much, but the handler spoilt :(

Back

Busy schedules

I'm BACK to all those busy schedules. I miss pattaya beach so much!

It has been quite some time that i did not blog, and so automatically i'm not sure where to start from.

I got a lot of photos to share and interesting things that i experienced during this holiday, but i got no lap top to use and hardly got enough time to blog as well. My laptop was sent to fujitsu service center yesterday, because it's really dying =(
Thanks to MW for accompany me there and did not mind that i went off so fast after that. I really do appreciate such friend like you.

Now i'm using baby's laptop (: 

JUST A QUICK REVIEW of where i went to and what i did recently.
On 20th-24th december i was away to bangkok and pattaya with my secondary school friend.
I happen to meet familiar faces there.  Celest and Dillion was at bkk so they bring us around for shopping and eating.

After the trip, i started to work and attend christmas party at GoodWood Park Hotel. Very enjoyable night spent with friends and making friend with new people.

After which, for the next few days i was working and working. Yesterday was the steamboat session cum christmas celebration at Grace's place. 4E3 girls and V was there(:

following up there will be more events and more working schedules. Further more school starting next monday.
Oh gosh.. the holiday is so so so so so so short!!!

Hopefully my laptop can survive and come back to me soon. Will blog more about my trip and other events when there's time.

ciaozz

cheers

Happy notes:


I'm flying away. I'm really gonna fly away.
I hope i'll enjoy myself and really let go of everything chill and relax.


I'll miss..
miss the familiar place where i used to hang around.
miss you also.

hahahaha.  

Digusting cockroaches

I'm currently studying outside of my room because there is cockroaches in my room :(
Worst thing is its a FLYING cockroach! The most scary and disgusting ones.

And my neighbour next door is so in considerate.Seriously donno what's wrong with their mind.
why cant they leave all those construction work in the house till tml ? It's really so irriating when you try to focus and there comes that drilling machine sound.

Now i'm so afraid and feeling so annoying. What can i do?

Solution:wake up in the middle of the night to study?
Constraint: I got to work the next day. It was my mistake that i forget to request for off day and they schedule me tml 2pm-11.30pm.

STUPID.

enough of all whinings coz no one give a shit about it.
LOL.

It's driving me crazy again=.=  DEPRESS

Focalization

Yays~!
It's time to pop my eyes with toothpicks and focus on my revision.
Indeed, im always so last minute in whatever. I just prepared all my notes and everything needed to cover in coming common test. Notes,revision papers,pens,colourful highlighters , etc well prepared and ready to chiong for CT Revision.

Good luck everyone.

(: 


ShoutOut: 1) needs a perfect environment to focus my study.
                2) hopefully my laptop don die during this period.
                3) pray hard luck is with me and everything goes smoothly according to my plan


BYE.

Hates Project work TTM

I spent my time doing PM project and now i realise i got not enough time for CT revision.=(

Stay back in school just now, did most of our PM assignment. But i still feel there's quite alot of things/task not yet complete =(
SO SAD.

Had dinner with PM project group mates- Bei,cherie,peng. (:
First time,
had MEGA MAC,
MAC delivery in school,
staying back so late in school to chiong project,
bang my head TWICE so hard, and its so PAINFUL!

SO MANY FIRST TIME...

alright there's alot of things to do now.
and im stressed up.
and even more stress when someone don reply me or don answer my call.!

AND im not going to sleep tonight.
i hope i can finish as many things as possible.
give me support please..
LOL

Hectic is the word.

I'm so exhuasted.
1) PM research done half way.
2) I'm working 2pm-11pm
3) Ecad revision started 0.2 percentage.
4) OOAD,PM,MAD revision left untouched.


My head spinning.
1) Hotels to BKK not book yet
2) I got to take cab back home tonight. and i got no cash. HOPEFULLY i hop on to those cab that accept NET!
3) Heavy head and trouble mind, please no troublesome customer today.


I REALLY NEED A GOOD SLEEP!!
=(

Timbre night out.

3 DEC 2009,Thursday.

Stressful day in school but peaceful night @ timbre

After doing PM project in school till 7plus, i went off first. Feeling super stress up, i'm so confuse about what is going on now. So many assignments,project&common test coming....

Infact, i should have cope everything well coz i didn work during week days already. But it seems like time is never enough for me. I haven even start revising for CT. and it's like one week away.=X

so scare, but yet i'm doing nothing. TOTALLY STRESS UP   :c

I went back home, feeling totally exhausted and i rested a while before bb came to pick me up. 

Ben&steff were waiting for me downstair even before bb reach. When i saw this red car, i didn know its ben till he shines his small flashlight at bb's car =.=

I'm so slow , i know...@_@

Headed to Coronation Plaza, Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe for dinner.

Had mee sua, and milk tea which taste not really very nice. But the milk tea not bad.(:

Wanted to have mussels, but everyone so full..

instead we went timbre to chill out before heading home.

There's live band performing... by this band ,enigma 

(i think so.)

Chill out, beers, laughters, music, fun, relax, love

& pictures.

Ben & steff...

bb n me.. he's singing when taking picture?

Thanks bb for coming to fetch me. i know i'm quite troublesome  ^_^

Rusdy and us...  He's very knowledgeable,bb said he loves wikipedia(:

He reads national geographic book..

Ramdomzz..

What's with that fierce look , bb?

bb took pictures of GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  >.<

And he wanted to take picture of that waiter but ben block it.

ben and his fist punch

There's a reason beind this fist punch... and i guess only they know it..??

 

 

 

live band by enigma on stage. Not so nice, but there's this group of ppl @ timbre and they seems to enjoy it alot. They dance and sing and AA(attract attention?)

But this bunch of ppl really entertains the crowd.

 

  Steff and me.. she got nice complexion(:

  slacking and chilling...

carefree co.

  

  

  

 caught red-handed! they looking at girls!!!LOL..

why guys alway look at girl whenever they walk pass. even though not very pretty ones?

 

bb n ben keep doing stupid funny actions.. and it really make us laugh..

again?

  

group photos before we seperate and home..

  

  

  

 

  ps: rusdy looks funny here.reminds me of lao fu zi

  

home..

  ran away co?

  

bye to bb^_^

 

Thanks ben for sending me back.

Three of us stay in the west area , bb n rusdy staying in east area..

And when i reached home, i couldnt sleep. 

I think of ways to make myself go to bed in the end i slept at 5am plus..=.=

Now im feeling damn tired.

Plans for today(friday)

1. Do research for PM

2. Revise Ecad for CT.

3.Movie,new moon with shan n yan

4.dinner with bb???  

but don think can.. bb must be very tired after work??

5. night jogging? if possible.

Birthday-s

Posted :30-11-09
                                               edits

November babies..
30nov : mami celebrated her chinese birthday at home
and on this day , coincidently it's hou hao's 20th birthday as well


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH..(:

we had a mini celebration just now.
uncle and aunt, grand-papa and popo, cousins were here.
so coincidently again, grand-papa and popo going back to HK tml and everyone came over for reunion dinner.

18nov: cousin TT's birthday. We had a little celebration for her as well. mami bought her black forest chocolate cake. which is her favourite. she loves chocolate..

Mami ordered KFC and its in the middle of the night.. LOL.. hahas.. I Hates KFC...so scare of KFC.. esp, those chickens.. but i love the cheese fries..without spring onion. hehs. contradicting right?

This morning before going to school , i force popo to take picture with me.. hahas. coz she don like to take pictures.. so i bo bian, and praise her that she got a very nice hairdo. LOLz. hehe.
my popo super cute. i love her the most!

Pictures taken during the celebration.. hehe..

That's my mami.. she's the best and most hardworking mami in the world. although she always want me to independent and do everything on my own but she will help me in between.. you must be thinking so what's the point of her wanting me to be independent right,?
She don really help me when i'm in trouble or in need, as in not those directly help me and its secretly help u.>.<
but nvm, i still love her.

Mami and sis.
background was really in a mess. but who cares.
The "zhu jiao"= important person happy can liao.

And it's my turn. hahas.. weird arhh.. i'm holding mami's cake like as if its my birthday.
I went back home straight after my work. and i reached home in around 10 mins.
^_^ thanks to jason. He's so nice to let me cab home..  though he always scold me blur like sotong but he still quite nice sometimes.

It's mami's fruit cake. taste not bad. but i got no appetite to eat anything when i came back, as i was too tired.
I was still quite full , had tuna subway sandwich before i head to work.

I like cherries, though i heard that it contains donno how many types of chemicals. but it's nice.
maybe because there's usual two cherries on cakes and it makes me think that it's nice .=,=

Guess who get to eat that cherry in the end?

 

It's not me luhh..

THAT stupid gal.. after i snap this picture she quickly eat that cherry luhh...;(

 

That's her notes... she was mugging for her MST >.<

more camwhores........................................................

Yes!!! my handsome guy!! haha..

I was calling stupid bb!!!! arhhh..

He's so busy and he didn reply my text!
;( he said he forget to reply me.  @_@



SIS took pictures of me when i was on the line.

MOODLESS!!! how can you forget to reply me.!! why are you so addicted to playing pool??
what's so nice about playing pool luuhhh=(

So angry with bb!!
Till i cont to watch 17 again. and my sis slap me???eeeeeeeeeee dirty hand!=X

ZAC EFRON SO HANDSOME   *_*

End

awesome night out in town.

Lack of updates for quite some time.
I was busy or should i say i kept myself so busy that i have no room for wild imaginations.
I wasn't enjoying my time for the past few weeks,  probably i was upset with myself and decided to torture my soul.
I was emotional but i need not others to show me compassion.
Anyway, just wanna update my blog and look back what i was doing for the past weeks.

AWESOME skies as usual.

Did i mention how much i love the beautiful blue skies?

If one day i owns a professional DSL

, i would spend my time taking pictures of all those blue awesome skies.

capture those different formation of white clouds

Some day i wake up and saw my sis's left a note for me.

Thanks that you did leave a notice for me and at least i won't wake up feeling frustrated.

unable to find the set of clothes i wanted to wear for the day.

all our unhappiness and quarrels and shouts was apologised.

26.11.09

Headed out for a late dinner

 

 Sandra,steff,rusdy,ben,baby and i @ bugis ah chew dessert.

Sandra just finished her last paper on that day. steff already finished her paper on 18 nov and

how about me??

have to wait till 18 dec!!! OMG~!

 

FESTIVAL Mood.

I love christmas TTM.

(:

We headed to ION Orchard for dinner.

dine in at WATAMI Japanese Casual Resturant.

And i regret choosing my own order.!!

coz it's not nice at all.

resulted: baby have to eat two on behalf of me o_o two servings...

I'm so sorry, my poor baby.

hehes. but i guess your gym session will help to burn those fats away.

right?

 

 after which we had desserts(:

usual place, famous dessert stall located at bugis.

 

 I love those antique furnitures and decorations at ah chew.

 

Aloe vera with fresh lemon honey?! something like that, cant really rmb the name.

but it's nice, very refreshing and healthy also.

can help prevent those pimple outbreaks.

 

 

above:Ben's photography skill

 

and baby's photography skill.

 

The guys, only rusdy notice??

 

 

playing with my awesome red camera.

 

 

 

 

ben is a pig! and everyone else is "cool"

 

some causal chats and talks before we went back home.

 

sandra trying out one of the camera features. when you close your eyes, the camera will show >.< face.

so cute..

 

 hehe. baby so cute!!(:

ILY

excitements.

I'm so excited !!

alot of exciting things coming up this week...

(:

Shattered

I really donno why some people are so lucky and fortunate to have nice and supportive friends around them yet they don know how to appreciate.

I know this world is really filled with bias and unfairness. 

but still I HATE IT !

DONT YOU?

Get lost.

WELL DONE !
you just make my head ache like nobody's business!

(www.flickr.com/photos/fuxicek/49812396/)

2012 End of the world?

catch a movie with ben,steff,AYE,WT,rusdy and baby on thursday night.

pictures taken from: http://www.flickr.com/photos/29745871@N08/3749997268/


2012 was an awesome movie. I was really impressed by this movie.
The movie started at 11.45 and i was amazed that the whole cinema was filled though its on a thursay night.


Baby came to fetch me after my work and we headed down to cathay with rusdy to find the rest of them.
It was quite late when the movie ended, Ben sent steff and me home as we stayed in the same area.


The next day was IS day and our module don need to go back school. so happy.=]
Woke up early and started to apply for the internship thingy. I'm really confused. COZ i donno what i want.
Am i the only one who felt this way?
But in the end i still got to make a decision.
LOL.
I'm so stressed out.
Did a bit of assignment for OOAD2. And rushed to bathe when i know the time was already 1.05pm. And i'm working at 2pm-.-
It was raining damn heavily, AND i have to go work.. =(
As usual, late for work>.<
Coz i wanna earn more money and save more (: christmas is coming ^^
that's why i head down to work on a friday.
Work was relaxing, request for early knock off but end up knock off at the same time-.-
COZ I'M SO BLUR!!
I lost my counter data sheet -.-
hai... bad experience.

Went to find baby after my work. Wanted to gave him a surprise. But someone else already surprised him.
LOL.
Ben and KL went to support baby after their work also. Perhaps that's why baby is not surprised when i was there??.
Had a meal tgt before heading home.


I had a bad start this morning.
Sad and dissappointed.
WHY PEOPLE LIKE TO COMPARE???
what's wrong with human being???
hais~!!'
forget it. coz i cant find any answer to all my questions.




Time to get prepared and go work again...
>.<
another day of work...

Intriguing.

Simply hate going to school on WEDNESDAY!

MAD,PM,ECAD hates x 1000000000000

I'm really struggling very very hard during lesson.

I forced myself not to do any other things(no blog hop, no fb,no msn) that's not related to Study.

But still i don get what the lecturers are teaching.

MAD was fine. I love nana, he's so helpful. I did all the tutorials and practicals every week. 

I guess that's the only core module that i really understands.

For PM, i got problem with tutorials and pract. But that lecturer looks so unapproachable=(

I'm so scare lahh..PM is one of the core modules. I was reading the textbook and i realised there's alot to catch up.

There's alot alot alot alot for me to catch up.

Stressed.

  

But i'm fine...still smiling and still cheerful though feeling a little stress.

Decided to go for a swim after school.

very random.

  

(taken outside bukit view sec)

Coz the weather was too perfect for a little swim. =D

There's very few ppl at the pool today. Spent an hour plus alone, relax and had a more time to myself.

I love the pool.

looking upon the grey sky, all of a sudden

the blue sky no longer attracts me.

 

wish that there's plenty of time to spend under those billions and millions of stars

 

boyfriennd(: is in the progress of becoming a body builder??!?!

I wanna drive away with you

Counting down 4 more practical lessons to tp.

Today i went for pract lesson as usual, and i was graded an A (:

I was quite happy when tay recorded a A grade on the booklet. Coz it's the first time that he gave me a grade A. perhaps it's because i'm afraid that i might fail that's why i really do everything carefully.

It seems like everyone is taking up driving lessons and slowly one by one passed and able to drive around.

Now i'm gonna work harder, and earn more money =) so that the dream of being able to have my own car at the age of 21 will come true soon ^_^

Hopefully i can pass. Driving is something that i value and i wanna drive mami to work if i really got a car.

i'll pray hard that i can pass and there's no more worries for me (= one less worries

Today, i got a strong feeling of not attending school. I realised that i hate going to school. I'm stress, i felt sick, my mind so empty and i'm so FAKE.omg when did i become like u?!

But in the end i still rush down to school . I wanna do well in my academic. I don want the family to look down on me. I guess i just have to put on a bigger mask to hide all those unhappiness away.

Now, i'm so worried. But i cant figure out what is it that i'm really worrying about.

OMG=.=

Emotional feelings again.

 

Thats me n my fatty meats. I'm so fake.

Can you tell?? probably not, coz no one will bother who i am and what im thinking.

ALRIGHT. The world is round, there's nth that human cant solve it. so i'm still alright(i guess) and still cheerful.

* i love pictures. it tells me how fake i am.

miss those wonderful friends

overdue post:  7Nov


Met up with MS for dinner.

It has been quite a long time that we didn meet up. I seriously miss those secondary school days.

LY will be busy with her A levels for the next few weeks and we wont be meeting up that soon.;(

Shan called up last min for a meet up and i rushed out but i was still late. (for an hour plus=.=)
I'm so sorry shan.. But i guess she's understanding(: plus she always late when we have meet ups during our secondary school days.
so she cannot scold me for being a latequeen =D

We had our dinner at Spagetti Too. The bake rice was delicious(: 

 * LOL, just rmb to take a photo after we had finished our meal. coz we were too hungry and forget to take pictures before starting to eat.

Went to shop around for my flats. I seriously need to buy a new pair of flats. But i didn buy any shoes -.-
Instead i bought a dress. and i totally regret buying it =(

Coz its too loose at the top=.= n i think i need to alter it if i wanna wear it.

 

*_* and after i purchase it THN i realise its a L SIZE=.=

and when i try it out i thought it fit nicely. Looking at the picture makes me feel that its damn ugly.

Don suit me at all.

but too bad i've already paid >.<

 

I seriously donno what to do with this dress.  =X

The more i look at it the more i felt wasted.

Anyway, forget it coz there's nothing i can do about it..O:

Shan bought a new shirt too.^_^ I was damn tired after walking around the mall.

But we both had a good time chatting and planning our trip to HK and maybe malaysia or bangkok..

Hopefully, yan wants to go with us too.. heard that she's gg taiwan soon..

jealous..

I'm so looking forward to travel with my wonderful friends!!!

but now all i wish was to travel with baby for this coming holiday break. Hope our plans will be a success one(:

8th Monthsary@ZEN

 ** Pictures of you &  me

8th Nov

Had a mini celebration at our fav dining place, Zen.

on this day, someone try to make me happy (for a while) by putting my face on his hp wall paper.
(i bet he would have change it back to his face after that=.=)

Here's our Dinner.

                         Wheat cocktail

 

As usual we had premium oysters

  

But something special on that day,BAKE cheese lobsters 

  

  

  

Dessert, rum & raisin icecream

  

Digging for gold?

  

  

  

we ate so full, which means FAT!!! oh man..

but who cares, its a blessing to eat nice food

  

We went ECP for a stroll along the beach. 

i love the feeling of walking beside you and felt your presence.

  

  

 

We took pictures, we laugh at each others, we do stupid faces and i guess we've forgotten those unhappiness earlier on.

I wanted to plant a little kiss on your cheek, but i just donno how to do it.=.=

I'll burst out laughters and end up make the atmosphere weird and hilarious..

But in the end, i still gave baby a kiss...=D

I think i look like some (donno what) pork ? pig? trying to kiss ??

LOOKS DAMN funny.-.-

Alright that marks the start of my 8th months on the way to 9th mth together with baby.

Time flies. Everything about this day reminds me of our 1st monthsary celebration at blue lobster.. This day i didn manage to get you sth or even do sth for you. Perhaps i was still angry about certain things which i cant get over it. Hopefully next month i can make something special for you=]

Thanks for the treat ;D 

hearts*)

Stop procrastinating

FCUK those that don appreciate you.

Why felt depressed and upset over such matters,?

not like as if you never been through all this before.

know what you should do, and do it now.

don wait and delay till there's nothing you can do!

void from school- eLearning

overdue post:

4th nov, wed 

It was BCE day and we are suppose to do eLearning at home.

baby picked me up early in the morning and we had mac breakfast together.

I love having breakfast early in the morning and have healthy mind ready for the day's challenge.

Did my tutorials and all those things required to complete that day at b's place. I was freaking tired!!!

b slept his way through till evening!!! OMG~! *stupid pork!

The whole house left only me n gina. But she was at GW korkor's room upstair watching her korean show.

I felt so strange... and  i was struggling with my assignment>.< I guess i really got poor understanding, a lot of times i don even understand what the lecturer requires us to do. 

IM SUCH A FAILURE..

Hang out for dinner and homed to rest afterwhich. While baby meet rusdy for movie. I'm so sorry to ps b for the second time?!. As i was really too tired ....

Lately, b keep going out till so late =( 

arghh..

got life arh....Lolz

 

hmmmm.. should i go for hair extension again?

i hate my hair right now. It's totally spoilt already, even reguarly hair mask doesn't really help=X

How i wish i got that long long hair again...

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HMMMM...

its SAT and im at home. I took off for this weekend as i thought mic n tkd-mates wanted to go wild wild wet, but heard from mic that quite some of them cant make it. Plus mic hurt her leg during sparring. so the plan for today kindda failed.

Wanted to go swimming this morning, but it rained AGAIN!

So i'm here...>.<

i'm gonna blog down those things that happened recently. :)

...

my blog lack of updates...=X

Torrential Rain

Heavy downpour destroy my plan for today.

Initially, i wanted to go for a swim in the evening. But the rain continue non-stop until now.

It's coming to the end of the year which means approaching monsoon period.

School was fine today. But somehow i wasnt feeling the right way.

There goes my stupid emotional feelings and crapz.

I guess i'm too stress up. But what's the reason behind it? NO ONE knows.

I wish i could hide to somewhere.

I'm so f.ugly.

I miss my boy

A Sense of Repugnance

I totally hate it!
It's not my fault at all and i don deserve that kind of treatment.
If i could, i would have fly to somewhere, where no one knows me, where i can start everything anew.
where i can select the ppl that i love and live with them.

I simply hate what's happening right now. CHAOS!
It simply make me feel so sick like as if i don wish to return back to here anymore.
Its so disgusting shit that i wont want to face it.
Not that im a coward and i dare not rebel.
But it's that i respect you, i look up on you, like a role model.
But u simply disappoint me.

Jubilant

Today, someone is so sweet to surprise me outside my lecture hall.

Loveyou.

Though i was still thinking why you suddenly treat me so good, but i think you just did a very good job.

You make me remembered i'm attached and i got a boyF. Furthermore, you clarified that you do care for me that much.

Though it's just a small action of fetching me from school, but i felt your care.

Thanks B!

After school bb drove me back to put my bags and get changed. We headed to ben's place and picked ben&steff before gg to hollandV for dinner. Went cystal jade for our dinner, had some chats and laughters.

Another happy note for today:

I just found a partner to go exercise with me=] which is STEFF!!

This friday, might be gg to ben's place to swim with steff.

We are so gonna be healthy people!!

LOOK AT THIS CUTIE!

 Its a cat licking the dust off its body ON A motor scooter.. Its really very cute..

I started to like small small animals. esp doggy!!

Time to sleep.

Heart.

GoodNight ^_^

crying over spilt milk

I don't know what's happening. 

You told me nothing went wrong but your words and actions speak differently.

I'm not a fool and i'm also a human that deserves respect.


Hate wearing a mask!

Back to school

YTD was the first day of school, starting of year 2 semster 2.

The feeling of waking up so early in the morning and squeezing in the bus was totally SUX!
Just don't like the feeling of attending school.

phobia?
coz i hate putting on a fake mask.

First day of school and i only attended 3 hrs of lecture.After school i bus-ed home and accompanied my grandparents for dinner. Ate a little porridge and went to BEN'S place for BBQ.
They organised this BBQ session at ben's new house, quite a number of ppl attended.
Get to know minyu which is kitmin's friend. We had some good chats and we played with Steff& ben's cute cute doggy. At least i'm not that scare of dogs anymore. hahas.. i love the doggy and her puppies.=]

hope minyu send me the pictures. n i can upload soon..=]

I HAD FUN last night.
Hope baby enjoy it as well..

Ben drove us back after which and sth nearly happened..=/
it's all my fault.=(
coz at the junction, i direct him the wrong way he all of sudden change direction.. which is damn dangerous. Felt so sorry about that.. =X

Anyway, lunch break now and i got no appetite at all.. Perhaps it's because of theBBQ session last night.>.<

sick=(

fall sick again=(

I totally hate this feeling!
Was suppose to work today but half way on the bus, i felt so giddy and decided to go see a doc.

I was feeling so bad... sore throat and headache =(
went to lightHouse and waited for near an hour all by myself.

How come doc always like to talk crapz and delay the time.. lengthen the consultation time!!
make me wait so long.

and esp when i wasnt feeling good!!!
Had flu vaccine injection and had MC for today=.=!

After many hours of good sleep i felt much better...
(:

smileX!

now waiting for my dearest popo to arrive!!!
she n grandpa coming to visit us=]
yays!!

papa fetched them from airport and they are now the way back^_^

safra with mic n LK

=]
Jurong safra with mic & LK.

I always wanted to visit safra whenever i saw that place when on the bus back home. And mic is so nice to organise an outing to safra today (=

Through out this whole holiday, i have been enjoying my every single day.
Eating and eating and more !

Sounds scary, but it's true. I guess i spent most of my holidays eating nice food and putting on more weights.

Hahs, perhaps the dream of growing thinner wouldnt be true anymore.

But who cares, coz i'm enjoying my time eating with ppl i love and eating is also a blessing . Right?

BUT BUT BUT.... i still wanna keep fit though i'm really enjoying my life....

shall go for more exercise=]


Anyway, back to safra outing...

I was late and i swear i didn do it on purpose..=(
I took a bus to JP and mami ask me to pass her some of her working stuff.
So i was late plus the delay of waiting for mami i was even more late..>.<

And mami damn blur lah!!!
she called and said she wait for me at the interchange near the durian stall. When i reached i told her im near the durian stall thn she donno walk to where and i couldnt find her.
In the end she's at the other durian stall at the other end of the interchange=.="

hai yo~!

hmmmm.. picturessssssss xxz!



Had our dinner at safra after swimming =]

But i think the food not very nice>.< or perhaps i choose the not nice one.. but other is nice??


LK's dinner

mic said her rice set taste nice..

my salmon nabeyaki...>.<
look at the pic and the real one...
from the picture it looks yammy.. but it's nt so nice leh..


actually nothing special there. but there's quite a no.of stalls there. more alternative.



Swimming time..

Mic didn tell me that we're going safra to swim and i didn bring my swim wear..
Lol..

Lucky sis helped me to bring my swim wear to JP=]
LOVE YOU MANY MANY!!!
heee...


Mic, happily smiling^^

Wash up time i was the last one >.<>.<
need to wait for mic to bathe finish thn my turn


(: that's my nice straw bag. which mami said it's market bag.>.<
this time round i bought smaller size as compare to the previous one..



PS... this is the only one pic that's not black and can see both our faces.
but but mic said its ugly..
no right??? she got nice white teeth!!!

LK n me=]








I think we damn suay... coz when purchasing the entry ticket. the machine all of sudden hang and there's printing error..
in the end we only got one ticket though we paid the price of 3..

Called for help but there wasnt anyone there>.<
lucky there's a lifeguard that walked pass and he let us in after knowing the machine hang..>.<
wasted our time...

the kidz amaze...
LOOKS DAMN FUN!!
guess next week we're gg to play there.




Adult also can play =]
weeeee~!!
actually i love playgrounds alot!!!!!
hmmm though im turning 20 soon but i still like playgrounds!!



The weather damn hot!!
But quite nice especially for suntanning session!


(: I really enjoy my time today. Though i wasnt feeling well, but still i love the sun, the water and the food today!!!

Wanted to meet baby to play tennis, but couldnt make it in time and i came back home after having dinner with mic n LK.

When i reached home i feel so feverish..>.<
I guess i'm gonna sick again=(

sian!!!!
I'm gonna sleep ealry. working tml>.<

disappointment

My world revolves around you!
Now it's all about you!
Perhaps its so true,
the more you care about it, the more you feel sensitive.
And thus you feel even more disappointed.

I thought everyone changed, because i've changed as well.
I thought you are the one that understands the most, but i guess im wrong once again.

Disappointment!

It's all my fault. But i didn do it on purpose.
you just make me dislike u a little more.

;( sad, but this is what i've created.
I can't blame nor complain, coz NO USE at all.
so i shall keep it to myself >.<

lantern festival

3 oct.

lantern festival.

Do you rmb what u use to do when u're young on this full moon day?
Lighting up traditional lanterns,playing with candles n fire sparkles(correct spelling??>.<)

That's what we did too..

Meet baby and we headed back home to play lantern^_^
Initially, we planned to go china town to buy lanterns and candles. But jer & sis already bought it. so....

And at 1st we said wanna DIY our own lantern. but stupid b didn do any research or prepare anything for it.. coz i donno how to make lantern>.<
so our plan failed again.

instead, jer bought all of us lanterns=] we light up all our lanterns and walked over to that little hill near my place.
And there's alot of ppl playing fire sparkles there... Some other ppl went there for BBQ sessions.
we climbed up to the top and started playing with those things we had..



preparing the candles for our lanterns.


Cousin WQ went over to that hill with us while sis& jer went to buy drinks.


both of them so blur like sotong..-.-



Baby's kuku face.. trying to blow the candles..>.<











didnt manage to take a group pic. coz cam low batt.
Had so much fun playing with the fires and candles.

but one sad thing.. we didn really see that round bright moon>.<
coz its too cloudy..
______________________________________________


Happy: ice creams for us=]




KUKU FACEzxzx!

we had fun!

Had early dinner with baby's family. uncle chan cook for us=D
very nice ~!

saw GW Kor kor's pretty KOREAN GF today!!
she's so talented, she can play piano, and heard from baby she can play dota very well also..

woww...

Although there's some unhappiness early on but everything's over!!
yay! hope baby won't shout at me so loudly next time.
even when u're angry with me.
coz i was totally shock when u shouted at me=(
it just make my tears roll down on my cheeks for no reason.
the feeling sucks.x

alright time now is 2.32am..
shall sleep now..

hmmmm before that..
not forgetting...

to wish all those NPTKD mates who's gg for grading later on to achieve best results and get more doubles..^_^
jia you!

steamboat session with b.

=]

2 0ct

Baby came over for steamboat session at my place.
We meet up at my place.
before heading out to purchase all the ingredients , i had to enrol for the coming IS.

choosen health & lifestyle as my choice
lecturer: TAN TIEN SIANG, ALPHONSUS

yeahs. its a morning lesson. =] at least its nt so tired as compared to going school in the afternoon.

i so blur>.< at 1st thought i have to choose 2 IS lol.. wanted to call up my classmates to ask. but i guess they are too busy =S =] pictures again...^_^ headed to suntec after steamboat at my place. Its our 1st time taking a bus tgt from my place to suntec. Very long coz there's heavy traffic jams.. but we were chatting and thus i felt its quite fast as compare to taking it myself.(alone.)

wanted to take neo print tgt. but we couldnt find that machine...LOL
so decided to hang around there, shop a little, and buy sushi from carrefour.

YEAH.. my fav salmon=]
thanks my baby=X

Love you!!!
hmmmm hope u feel better & i really hope u will share with me those things that's troubling u etc.

i don't wish to see my bf so troubled and yet i don't even know a single thing.
i'm sorry, but sometimes i really don mean it to say or rather make comments
that makes u think otherwise.
i also wish to have more time with you, more late night movies, more hangout to nice places, etc
But i'm restricted by some other things which i hope u understands.

nevertheless, i'll try my best to spend more quality time with u=D

SO pls don misunderstand me... and lastly i seriously hates fightings,quarrellings,ignoring each other..
coz it sux big time!

alright, back to the happy part.!!!
we bought sushi-s and had our 4th or 5th sushi session from carrefour..
did u count?


very nice =]



I love sushi!!!
WE love sushi!!!
yummy yummy!!!


shop at MUJI.
b saw a familiar face yet he cant rmb who that person is..
end up when on the way back he suddenly rmb-.-
lame..
u can keep thinking who that person is from muji all the way back home..


nice packaging...
enviromental friendly=]




=]]

back to the steamboat session....

After doing the IS enrollment thingy, we headed out to supermarket... buy all those ingredients for steamboat. coz my house really got nth to eat >.< b help to carry all those things back to my place n we start preparing..
cousinWQ came back n we eat tgt...he didn really like it coz he said its too spicy..>.<

In the evening cousinTT n her classmates came over for steamboat as well..=] i felt so happy!! coz we prepared more thn enough ingredients for 1234567 ppl.. and there's still more ingredients.. mami n papa n sis came back n had steamboat too!!! damn worth it.. its like $30++ steamboat ingredient(alotttt...) and so many ppl eat..=] i bet everyone eat until damn full..=] hahas. coz it's prepared by my baby,ruby & meee~! hohoho... sooner after eating... he wants to sleep..=[] PIG PORK!
take pictures with our dog..

too happy??




it's 3 or 4 pm in the afternoon and he can sleep?
damn pig!


in the process of eating while waiting for cousins to come back.









a small table of foods..



he wearing my hairband..
we are perspiring even before we on the steamboat.



looks not nice ??
we use ma la paste and make the soup base..
damn spicy lahh..
stupid baby put the whole packet!!






i got hot dog lips after eating it. coz its damn spicy...>.<

this is damn nice^_^


and we cooked laksa too..=] but its from the laksa paste=] hahahs...
anyway its nice ok.. hahahs..
lucky, ruby is there to help us.
coz stupid b donno how to use the can opener and hahahs. i also donno how to use.
LOl
she helped us to wash up all those things =]

hahahs..
happy day!!!

It's the 1st time baby came over to my place.
though not the 1st time we cooked tgt but this time round more fun!!!
baby n his lame words n actions make me laughed alot.

and i'm happy coz i saw everyone enjoyed eating the steamboat too..=]
^_^

and event for today: lantern day celebration tgt with sis,jer,cousins,baby& me.
gonna bath n head down to chinatown buy lantern and and.... candles?

rotary club with sis. receiving scholarship.

1 0ct 2009

Accompanied sis to ROtary club for her scholarship event.
Congrats to sis for recieving the scholarship =D

It's the 1st time attending to such fuction with alot of unfamiliar faces
or should i say its all strangers.

But they come from differant places but one thing common: they are all business person.
Sitting in a table of 10 person. out of three are the scholarship recipents from NTU, NUS & SP.
And the rest either bankers,famous dentist,medical researcher,doc, or traders....
Its scary~!
Through out the whole event, we get to know quite alot of successful businessman, self-intro, buffet dinner, games....

Had some fun though there's so many unknown faces but they make us feel so welcome coz they are so friendly.

PICTURES.. of us.
alot of it...>.<





US with smiliar hairstyle after returning home from BTM.
coz its DAMN hot!!!


I help sis with her make-up to make her look more presentable.=]
though cant really see much diff but but close-up looks better^_^




Though sometimes she really irritates me to the max and make me feel so pissed off..
but she's nice at times too...
SISTER.love=X


We left early even before the event ends. Coz they are playing games such as beer drinking competitions and other damnce competitions which don really suits us. >.<
so in the mid of game session we left. tgt with the other two scholarship recipents.

She' so happy upon recieving it.
Mami so proud of her...
I guess GOD is very fair.
GOD gave mami a daughter that studies well and the other that don't/
so does it balance up??
LOL..

But whatever it is.. i'm gonna strive double hard on my acedamic too.
I want mami to feel proud of me too.
instead of feeling angry with me by scolding me for doing other things that waste my time...??


we went over to BTM for our proper dinner.


Coz the buffet items got alot of the things i don like.. thats y didn eat much also..



STINGRAY+ WHITE CARROT CAKE.(my sis's fav.)



looks normal but taste great.



this white carrot cake with extra chilli.. damn nice.





we managed to find the bus stop and took a bus to BTM..>.<



Rotary club's wall

Its a small club but internal design looks cosy n nice.









before heading out... =]




=]

We had a good evening tgt and we chat alot regarding our future n some other issues we r unhappy abt..
and and and

i really wanna do well too.
coz i really envy what she gets n i want it as well...=(

a weeks event.

What was i doing for the past few days?

Nothing much happenings.
i guess..

anyway, some overdue picxxz..

Tues, me n baby went out to try mutton soup.
was playing games at b's place before that.
and this stupid boy keep scolding me stupid!
i will always rmb it!!!
coz i was playing this gun shooting game and half way i forgot how to change the gun to machine gun and forgot how to get out of the hiding place. and i always game over very fast.
LOL. that doesnt mean im stupid alright.. it only means i'm not familiar with that game!!!


this stupid boy always like to scold me stupid.!!!!
I'M NOT STUPID!! tell u one last time~!


Didn wear contact lense for quite some time coz of eye irritation..
=( donno what happen as well.... just that my eyes tend to soar though feels nth, but it looks scary.


so matching..HAHAS.
fake smiles n toot pic spects. hahas

lemon lime drink. hahs.




heading for ice creams on one hot afternoon..
I learnt sth from b.
whenever im angry he will say this:
"angry for what, go eat some ice creams, go make urself some burgers."
LOL...
he explained that whenever a kid eats ice creams n burger he will be very happy.
so angry means need eat ice cream ??

was at that usual ice cream store near ocean park.
i like the ice creams there. fav = watermelon ice cream.






a boy , he makes ppl angry, like to laugh at ppl and still want to take pic for ppl.
stupid!

stupid.


mango+grapes?+ yummy bears = awesome match.



finally get to meet up with shan n yan!
headed to holland v for dinner. and we chatted damn long.
planned our graduation trip to taiwan and talk alot all the way from holland back to batok.=]

BFF ! though we seldom meet up but the friendship still there.. =]
my very good friends since sec 1=]


=]

headed out for late dinner with b.
i was super tired after a days work and b bring me to eat cute cute burger= fish burger from mac.

we had ice creams. not very nice though. >.< i still rmb i injured my fingers and its damn freaking pain=(

my fav burger,,! so cute cann..

see my hand,, though cant really see much diff but its swollen.
yes i got fatty fingers but on top of that its swollen. damn pain.
even when i was keying in the bar codes i can feel the pain as well=(


working sucks.
so long hours and everyone went to watch F1 thus, very few customers >.<
sian...
No fun at work=(
but i still smiling hahas. coz that day finally someone got the same break time slot as me.. hahas.
ginny n i had unhealthy tibits for our lunch cum dinner.



this summarise some of the past activities i did=]
Bored.hectic life.
hates
>.<

i hope to have more understanding parents.
LOL

out with baby.

26th sept 2009.

BF came back from KL and we had dinner tgt with his family.
Had delicious bee hoon crab n lotsa nice food.
went back to b's house, played piano for a while and headed out.
Coz HY jie jie wanted to sleep early so we can only play for a while.
b didn give me a chance to play the piano. He keep playing his fav song.
or rather the only song he can play..
LOl.

After which hang out with his frien, ben,steff,... to parkway parade.

played pool while me n steff chat alot regarding telemarketing and other part time work.
& im so jealous..
steff n ben gg oversea today? or is it ytd?
damn good luhh..
but i can only jealous them.. LOL..

nice duck duck in b's car..
this one can light up..



Though nth special but i think its very cute. hahas..=]

hahas. very long didn take photo with b..=(


though always the same face but the pic taken at differant time
and perhaps it captures the differant feeling at that pt=]
get what i mean?


hahas.=]

though u're oversea but u still bother to call back.
it shows how much u care.
love u.

hate!

I hate what's happening right now.
can i sleep my days off n hack care?

yes i can!

coz the Earth is round n its still spinning.

LOL.

ps: damn bad mood. i need a boxing glove!

stupid mistake

17sep

some pictures taken while we were discussing POLITE tournament.
though its already cancelled due to some reason but we learnt some things that we didn know last time. N i guess there's a group of good committees.=]

we had a few meetings just to discuss on those details we need to take care of during POLITE.
Though i wasnt there for some of the meetings but i still know whats gg on.=X




we had hard time when it comes to making some decisions.
LOL.


during the meeting...
in progress..

mic...

weekai,jovian aka sick boy n JL.



mic,jiamin n me. after training we walked to the backgate bus stop tgt.

yeah.. finallly i found my club tee and i can wear it for every training=]

it was orange's birthday on that day=]



derrick sir treated the club ice creams. and i dare not eat coz he said now im fatter thn him=(

peixin's sis, peiyi n mic.=] with their yammy ice creams

and i cut out that big blaster on my feet. its really disgusting. as if i just remove a small portion of my skin.. LOL.
pain..


=] see mic so serious with work=]
below : pic of the POLITE committee...







=]peiyi's small slipper.

bad day

I had a really bad day today.
Everything is not under my control.
No one gonna believe me .
No more.

But i guess it needless to explain if i don even know what is going on.
damn it~!

shit that stupid last min thing.
idiot!

ruby going home=(

Start my day with headache again=(


Today, ruby gg to bali and i sent her off to the airport. we took cab there.
She's so happy today.
But im really very very sad.
coz she will be away for 10 days and this means i cant find my things for 10 days.
OMG.
there's no one to cook for me,no one to wash my clothers,clear my messy room.
and many more..
I HAVE TO DO IT MYSELF.=(
seriously i feel so so so so so weird without her around.

gonna miss her damn alot...

After ruby leave for Bali, granny n yiyi came over from HK.
didn know that granny came over as well until this morning=.=
Papa fetch them home while i set off to meet aunty phyllis.
uncle chan pick us from Republic plaza.
It was raining -.- and there's terrible traffic jam.


Had dinner with aunty phyllis n uncle chan at SRC poolside cafe.
Very nice food there. eat damn full..
Aunty phyllis really treat me very good, seriously appreciate that.



While on our way to the airport..
Ruby!!! she's really damn good to us, she's like part of our family.
She always do everything properly and she really care for us alot.
MISS HER!!!
hope she comes back fast...

haha self-taking...


TODAY, i didn recieve any call from baby. Perhaps he already used up his phone card.
Just now aunty phyllis called him, and he was shopping at bangkok..
GREAT that he's enjoying his time there..
Looking forward to friday!!!

pic taken on the correct day when both of them suppose to set off for bangkok.
But they didn realise they book the wrong date=.=
and ended up buying another ticket on the next day.

SUPER BLUR TTM!
No one knows how that happens as well..
should ask mr.blurLW to explain it



SOTONG FACE!!!!
I miss u lahhhhhhhh
!!!!!!!!

just recieved baby's call!!!
So sorry to complain so much to u =(
but im really feeling good that though u're at other place but still u're there to be my listener.

Alright, im really feeling headache and sick again=(
gg to sleep now.

Tml will be gg for POLITE meeting in school and training in the evening.
Long day again. hope the sick feel goes off when morning comes around.

boring life

Bored!

Fall sick =(

SAD!

This morning, i woke up with a headache.
Went for my 8th practical lesson, damn restless and tired.
Overall, i repeated what i've learnt for the past few lessons=(
The instructor very unhappy with me. coz i keep repeating the same mistakes again n again.
Oh man!!!
i seriously don't know why whenever i start to drive i'll forget everything and and im so blur=(
i always forget to check for safety before i move off.
forget to down gear when coming to a stop.
forget to check blindspots when changing lane.
Don dare to step accelerator...blah blah blah...

woah.. practically i forget to do all those things neccessary to do.
sian.. i think i can just fail straight away man...
=(

damn scare lah.. coz FPT is on 25 nov.=.=



Decided to bring my pract book and read before the start of the lesson.
since i was early...=.=




Ytd, i went for tkd training.
The feeling so weird and uneasy.
I donno why ..>.<
perhaps i very long didn attend training already.
Heard from XF that my attendance very poor, guess i gotta sort out somethings else
my attendance will remain low and which means no CCA point?!!!!);

Now we got another important thing to busy with=(
Hopefully everything turns out fine.
HMMMM.. since im in it so why not make myself useful by doing my best..
Lol

I'm really so lousy now...
during training, half way i really feel like fainting already.
I donno why everytime after working at those shows i'll feel so sick and restless..
Didn train much also.
Because my old injuries stop me from doing splits and some of the warm up.
Totally useless..

Now i donno what to do already.
coz i slept damn long this afternoon and now i cant get back to sleep anymore=(


I miss my baby so much.
How i wish he can come back now.=(
guess now he's on the train back to bangkok. 12 hours of train ride.OMG.
whenever he called back the feeling is like he's so near to me but the fact is he's still in bangkok.
Hai~!!!

Aunty phyllis n uncle gg to paris on thurs and baby coming back on friday.
omg!! so many ppl flying to here and there.

Tml ruby gg to bali and im gg to send her off to the air port. meanwhile gotta wait for auntyXL and pick her up=.=
She's coming to visit my cousins.
OH MAN.. cousins are really fortunate to have such a nice mami.
Just one call and she's flying here to visit them.
=D

How i wish im the one flying to other countries. i seriously wish to fly to somewhere so much!!!
which i know its rather impossible!=(
dream on..=(

comex show.

End of comex show.

End of work.
sunday, 13 sept was the last day of work at the comex show.
Though i only worked for 3 days but it feels like i'm working for 3 months long.

I keep complaining here n there coz this show totally damn sian.
Im promoting the Mobile internet device for this company...
It's a new device which was launched in oct.
which means a lot of ppl might hear of it but they wont really trust that it works properly
and the price for one device cost thousands over dollars.

Thats why quite difficult to sell.
Anyway, its over.

Happy~!
Hope our pay will be ready soon and i can go shopping.

It has been a long time since i last went for shopping.>.<

Last day of work, took pic with qi=]



Our tired face after work..
I feel so sorry, that i intro her a job that can't earn much and really very tiring.
On the 1st day of comex show i wasnt there and qiqi have to go work alone=(
the worst thing is we are seperated!!!
can only have lunch tgt and go home tgt.

=(


Saw alot of familiar faces at the comex show.
primary sch mates and some sec sch mates.

Some i couldnt recognise them but they can still rmb me.
which means there's no much changes in me through out this few years.=]


hmmm..
and

i went to trim my hair, though no much of a diff but it feels better now.
split ends removed but there is still some not totally gone.


I was early for work that day, decided to camwhore and wait for the time to pass=.=


Overall, i'm really very sian at work.
But it's always like this...

And luckily i got a team of friendly teammates.
Though our sales not good but everyone of us try our best and help each other to close a deal.
My team mates are fun n cheerful also.



So.. after the comex show, im back to normal, back to do what im suppose to do.
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